I don't see that it is possible. I might be wrong. It might be time to think of letting go. That is tough. I've had to do it myself with a few people. Life is suppose to be happy and living, in memory, of those who we cannot reach. Let it go. Tough stuff. That is just the truth. I'm sorry, but I'm a country person, and truthful, good or bad. I might be wrong. But you are full of life, a searcher. It is okay to re-direct that energy and look for something happy. Give yourself permission. Sometimes we are blocked for a reason. It is time to move forward. If your brother shows up later, be happy. If not, be happy anyway. Life is about living. We don't have forever, here, so don't waste it. It is time to mature and think in these terms. What is your life about, go there perhaps? Your brother probably doesn't want to be found. He is doing his own thing or something. That is fine. Do your own thing.