This one is three dreams in sequential order to tell, no, experience a life of somebody else.
I don’t know why yet it was given to me but it would make a great Hallmark movie or chick-flick.
When it was all over, I woke up in tears and wrote in my dream journal “Who’s memories are these?” in all caps. I had to get it down as fast as I could before it started fading but because I did get most of it, I can call it up and tell the story. It would take maybe a couple of hours again to tell the whole story, start to finish.
If I get finished with the first book, this will the second.
It starts out, I’m a teenager in a family with my sister and parents. I think I have brothers but I don’t remember them being a part of it. I am around 16 and my sister is an annoying 11 year old with a mischievous personality. She loves to prank me and we trade off pranks for quite some time over the course of the dream. We are moving into a new house. Dad just got a promotion and we move to a place next door to family friends who have two daughters. The youngest is about 14 and is my sister’s idol. They both do dancing lessons at the same place and after moving in, her pranks start to gain a new creativity and maliciousness that could only be attributed to some new ideas and possibly a more experienced mind. She and I had some issues but for the most part, they were good natured.
The families take vacations together and the houses are soon closer to each other than physical distance. One weekend, the neighbor’s oldest daughter has a dance and date scheduled with her boyfriend in another town close to the mountains we frequent on out vacations, and they invited us to tag along as well. However, my sister has one of her recitals or a show of some sort that I am in no way interested in going. I would rather sit in the mountains eating a great meal with better company than deal with that. Mom and dad are taking her and I go along with the neighbors as a third wheel and can pretend it is fun but, in reality to me, it is just not as boring as doing the sister thing.
So, I tag along. In the car on the way up, there is the regular bickering and sister sibling issues that sounds like noise to me and I tune it out. When we get there the destination is a cottage or chalet that has an upstairs room and lots of wood. The “date” is that night and we unpack and the girls start getting ready for the evening’s events and I settle upstairs after I change into my suit. Katy, the younger of the two, comes up while here sister fusses with her dress. The focus is really on her sister anyway, as this night is all about her and her thing.
Katy shows me her dress and it is beautiful. I normally don’t see her all dolled up for anything so she is looking rather appealing. It is several shades of blue and has what appear to be scarves flowing out from her waist onto the floor. Since she loves dancing and wants to show off the dress, smiling, she spins around dance style and twirls on her toes. As she comes down to her feet, she traps one of the scarves under her foot and it twists around her legs, keeping her from her balance and she starts to tumble towards the wood floor and it’s going to be a hard hit. Time seems to stand still as I scramble to my feet and catch her before she has any impact and lift her up, freeing her legs from their entrapment. As I set her to her feet, the look of terror is just starting to fade from her eyes and she then looks into mine. There is a moment in time where she is still feeling fear but there is something else. She looks like she is feeling bliss too. As I look into her eyes at this moment, I am feeling something never felt before as well. At that very moment, I fall madly in love with her and the feeling is overwhelming. Then, I do the first adult thing I have ever done in my life and we kiss. The wave of emotions and energy I feel is awesome and it changes something in me forever. When we pull away, I can see the look of fear is totally gone and she feels the same way. Nothing will ever be the same. Another kiss but this one is interrupted by her mother as she comes up the steps after hearing the commotion and catches us after the kiss. Katy explains that she stumbled and I caught her before she fell and everything is alright. Her mom can tell it is better than all right and leaves us to finish up with her sister.
The “date” goes on as planned and I am sitting across the table from Katy and her date. Her sister is oblivious while their parents are a safe distance away at another table. The date becomes the third wheel and I don’t think Katy heard anything he boasted about and it was rather comical to see his attempts to impress her all the while, I just sit there with a silly grin on my face, enthralled with her just doing nothing. She picked at her food and responded with a "huh" or a "yea, that's nice" She was completely distracted from him.
That evening, neither of us got much sleep and there were some changes going on in me I was not quite prepared for. The next day, the trip home was sleepy and we leaned on each other as we drifted off. When we returned home, I left to go back to my house to heard my sister’s report about her dance recital or whatever it was. I wasn't really interested before the weekend and I am so uninterested now. I told them about the trip (leaving out all the real details and feelings, of course)
Next day, the sister comes around and asks me what the hell happened over the weekend. She had a long conversation with Katy during the day and she is totally changed, especially with things that concern me. After wondering if I should tell her everything, I sit her down and discuss my details about what happened. We have a discussion and tells me that Katy feels the same as me and we start a relationship that is now beyond the annoying little sister. She is fascinated by our feelings and finds her best friend is now connected to her brother in a way she has no experience with. This conversation also changes their relationship forever as well. Don’t get me wrong, she is still annoying but the maliciousness is gone and it is just harmless fun from that point on.
This is where one dream ended and it seemed like a nice dream and had a good conclusion. I though it was over and it felt pretty good.
I went back to sleep and it picked up where this one left off.
I had a girlfriend. She suddenly seemed dysfunctional and all the faults I did not see before seemed to jump out at me and compared to the Katy, she seemed so petty and self-centered. I no longer had the kind of affection for her and I could not explain it, even to myself. It did not take very long to break up with her and neither of us were very upset. Which was even more curious to me. Until I saw Katy again later that day and it all made sense. Compared to her, the others were nothing and meant very little. “Is this what love is?” I thought to myself. Looking back, I never really loved the girlfriend we just got along very well, but never really clicked on a deeper level.
We started dating and the relationship progressed very fast. I had to be careful because every little thing I said or did was told to my sister and I could get into trouble quickly because she was still a snitch. Dates and High school and teen life life was good with Katy.
Dream 2 concluded with my proposal to Katy and her acceptance. Kind fun at this point. It was neat to see things other than my life and started to get interesting.
Little did I know what I was in for.
I thought that was the end of it but there was a third chapter that really blew me away and dragged my heart out. Third dream starts out we are married for several years now and we have six children. It also looks like twins are involved in this. I don’t really have a time range so it could have been during the 80’s or even the 90’s but it was not a long time ago. Being a parent is totally different and our relationship has changed and there is some difficulty between us because of the distractions of the kids and all their business that seems to surround them. Also, the constant bickering and fighting I thought was bad with just my sister and I is totally over the top and more than we could handle causing arguments and heartache. Some days we are just holding on to each other and that’s all we can muster.
One day, all of that changed. Katy was sleeping at night and had extreme pains in her back and we took her to the hospital. They ran some checks on her and she may have kidney stones, they deduce. The doctors need to run some tests, but before they do, they need to do a pregnancy test, just to be sure. After getting the results, they cannot use the dye because the test shows she is pregnant again for child number 7. No more sleep that night and the stones are the least of our worries now.
Life gets more hectic and I take time off work to take care of Katy and her health issues. The kids start getting calmer but the stress is much greater. After some time, it is obvious this pregnancy is not going to go as well as the previous ones, even the twins. There is lots of down time, grandparents step in more often to deal with the children and they respond surprisingly well to that. We decide to name him after a family friend who is a butcher. He is a really great guy and decided to become a butcher because he was used to the blood and gore that he saw in battle during WWII. He would be named Peter after him. After the birth the baby was not any less trouble. He was always uncomfortable and the children took turns helping out and they became very close to him. It seemed the baby was able to bring them together like nothing before and they became very attached to him. After a couple of years, we noticed he was late in learning to speak and did not walk until well after his first birthday. The walking issue was decided to be that he never needed to walk as there were always arms that were willing to hold him and take him anywhere he wanted to go. We had to stop the children from doing so much for him but that started people arguing over who got him next. He was a bright light to the family that brought us all together. It seemed to also be more than that. He always brightened any day and anybody he was around with just his presence. Several people said he was an old soul that was very wise. And he did have that presence. He also had a mind of his own and insisted on being called Petey and not Peter or Pete. He was what the family needed to bring back to a loving center.
One morning, there was a frantic phone call from Katy that she was taking him to the emergency room and I met her there. She was unable to wake Petey from his sleep that morning and as they traveled to the hospital, he woke and did not seem himself. They ran some tests and did a full scan and found he had what looked like a tumor in his brain near some critical areas that prevented surgery. It was heartbreaking and the family was distraught that night. The next day, he began a severe radiation and chemotherapy. It wore him out and the suffering on Katy and myself was devastating. Petey was his regular self and the nurses looked forward to seeing him as he was always in good spirits even when he was going through some obvious pain.
The prognosis looked good at first but the growth not responding well after a while. It looked like he was not going to make it to his 6th birthday. Katy had several sleepless nights crying over him and everybody he touched was upset as well. After his last therapy session, he was brought in to check his diagnosis and it was really bad. He was not going to need any more because they were not doing any good. Katy brought him to the car and wanted to just go home, put him to bed and cry for a few hours. On the trip home, there was a traffic jam and as she was desperately trying to hold back the tears, Petey seemed not to notice but his attention was captured by the cause of all the traffic. At the front of the snarl, there was a couple leaving a church in a horse and buggy decorated in white. The bride in her lovely white gown was being seated I the back of the open buggy and the groom beside her. They shared an embrace and a long kiss. Katy thought "that was cute" Petey stood up and said “I want to do that!” in an insistence she had never heard from him before and her tears dried up. She jotted down the number of the coach and traveled home in a totally different spirit. We decided that night that we would make his dream come true and contacted the coach to set in motion his trip. We had to work fast because his condition may not allow us much time to do a lot of planning. He was already having some trouble moving around and soon would be unable to walk on his own.
Next, we fitted him for a tuxedo. Not just any tuxedo, he had to have tails! Since he had mobility problems, it was designed to be pulled off him by the sleeves and the main part came apart in tow pieces. In the fitting, we could not discuss the secondary purpose for the tux. We would be using it for his funeral as well, but nobody could talk about it as it was so painful. All the other children got a special wardrobe as well and Petey was excited as they all picked out and displayed beautiful white dresses and smart tuxedos. He was having as much fun preparing for the event as the event itself. The tears were always just below the surface and nobody wanted to start “the talk” because everybody knew they could not hold them back after anybody starting crying and they wanted to give Petey a grand experience.
The day came for the horse and buggy ride and we all went to the park nearby to get in the buggy. Petey got in first and was up near the horseman. Katy and I were next to him with the other children in the back of the buggy. We could not all fit in so we had to take turns as we rode around and around the park in regal attire and Petey’s face beaming with a joy never seen before. He even got to ride once beside the horseman a couple of rounds. It was a ride of a lifetime for all of us and the day itself seemed like a dream within a dream. But it had to be over at some point. After a few hours of this, Petey was getting tired and hot so we decided to stop and get some ice cream before heading for home.
We piled out of the buggy and got Petey’s wheelchair as he was unable to walk at this time. We were all soaking in the day and as we came around the corner of a pavilion, a young man in an old time costume came quickly around the other way with a barrel of some thick yellow syrup and ran right smack into Petey spilling the contents on him and his wheelchair. The shock surprised everybody especially the man and as he tried to simultaneously apologize and clean up the spill, we all joined in the struggle, peeling off the special tux in the pieces it was designed to be removed with and getting Petey from the stick substance that now covered his entire body including his head. He looked around and it was a look of fear as we wiped his face off. He continued to check out all the people jumping to his rescue and all the commotion. He noticed some of this goo on his hand and before we could stop him, he shoved it in his mouth. It must have been the best tasting substance he ever tasted as he brought up his other hand to sample it again. A huge smile broke out on his face while at the same time his eyes were still terrified of the circumstance. In that moment, I saw that smile again. The one from the first dream that Katy had when I first fell in love with her forever. It was exactly the same and time again seemed to stop and it was like there was only me and Petey in our own world as I hugged him in the midst of all the sticky syrup and held him tightly as if to hold him back from the approaching death that we both seemed to feel approaching. There was even more love this time than the first time and it overwhelmed us both for what seemed like days. Eventually, the bustle returned and the young man was still apologizing and when he heard of Petey’s situation, he cried but I assured him it was more than OK and it presented a rare moment that will never come again and that I was grateful of that time. We got him all cleaned up but the tuxedos were all destroyed. Somehow, it didn't matter and Petey, like the angel he was, once again pulled out a miracle in the midst of disaster.
We, of course, had to have another tuxedo made, with the tails again. His condition continued to fail and one night at home, in his bedroom, his mother held him in her arms and Petey breathed his last breath. She said later, that as she held him close to her, she could feel his heart beat out the last, slow, beat and then he went limp. Petey died the way he lived, full of love with his family all around him. With all of us around, we all cried a collective tear fest for at least an hour and it was difficult pull his body from Katy’s arms. None of us would ever be the same. I thought I might be jealous of Katy being able to get his last experience with her as he faded away in her arms, but I remember Petey’s smile and holding him in my arms in all that stickiness and I am glad to have had that experience to carry with me after his death.
Petey was laid to rest in his special suit and the horseman gave him a top hat to take with him on his final ride. It was surprising to see all the people at his funeral. His life truly touched everybody he met.
And now, mine through the dream.
When I woke, I was in tears and struggled to get it all out on paper as I wanted to mourn for him and get it down so it would not be forgotten. Writing this down now brings out all these feeling again and I’m sitting here crying. He was/is still my son and he touched my heart. It was so real and moving. I am changed because of it.
I never think that when somebody says it was “Just a dream” No, this was not just a dream. Neither of these were anything close to a regular dream. It is as real as I am sitting here in tears over a son I never had and that smile lives in my heart forever now. I can still see them in my head. Both of those smiles. I still feel these feelings.
How is it that these dreams seemed to span years? I don't quite understand that part.
These dreams had a lot of details, too may other side stories as well to describe in the detail they deserve.
I have to tell their stories.
They seem to be by invitation only and it was really cool to receive them.
If I don't get these two out, I may not get any more.