Where am I going?

polkadotpuhjommies

.... don't be ambiguious with your intent ~
Not sure where to post this.

I have recently become aware of a new sensation for me. Somewhere on this board, I read about seeing through closed eyes, but of course, can't find it now :-/

This started many months ago, but is becoming much stronger now. Unfortuately the combination of curiosity and fear have stopped the progression of whatever the next step is going to be.

With eyes closed, I start to see realities in my life such as: the blackeness of closed eyes becomes my living room. The living room becomes the window and the curtains. The windows become an exit. The exit becomes my curiosity and fear!! and it ends. When I become curious, my mind flips back into beta cause now I want to know and understand what is taking place. The fear happens when I realize that I am about to 'go' somewhere....which is silly to be fearful of.

In large part, I think most of the 'fear' is that of going somewhere and then not being able to remember the experience. While realizing this is somewhat of a control issue, I catch it too late and the moment is over.

So, what am I experiencing here? Is this a type of OBE?
The example of the living room is one type. The main thing all examples have in common is that they seem to be progressive. I will see one thing, it leads to another, to another etc....or, I will stay in one place and it seems to have a life of it's own....like a story taking place while I am conscious, but not being mentally involved..just being an observer. It's when I realize this is taking place, that it stops.

One thing that happens to me so often is this:
I will see pages and pages of written material. I am reading this information at warp speed. I am understanding what I'm reading. I have no emotions while doing this. THEN !! I become aware of what I'm doing and bang..it's over. When I try to recall what I've just read, I am clueless ~~ other than sometimes having a sense that it was knowledge or instructions..but the specifics escape me.

Another thing I 'see often' are grids...in colors. Why? I haven't a clue. What am I to do with this? I haven't a clue. I also see geometric shapes....cones, triangels, circles etc. Why? I dunno. Also lots and lots of colors...like a fabulous color show. I will see blue on the left side, green on the right side, then both will blend & merge and the entire 'screen' is filled with turquoise. This is one example of the color thing. It's facinating to watch, but does it have value? I dunno.

What can I do to allow the process to continue without my mind becoming active to the point of putting up stops?

I will appreciate all thought and comments on any of these things.
 

energycritter

energycritter@y ahoo.com
Hello lady....the colors sound typical of what can happen when you press real hard on your eyes and force colors to appear...I used to do it on purpose when I was young....strange though, isn't it....not my point though...

I have the Book of Secrets by Osho, his rendering of the Tantra stuff, not sexual in content like poeple think, only a couple out of the 120 some odd issues discussed is that way. So, my piont is that in the book, about the 20th mention of techniques for a higher consciousness, he mentions opening the third eye.

What you do is close your eyes and look inside of the lids up and to the middle where the third eye is supossed to be located. In the East, they do this a lot. The idea is that by doing this, over time, you will see films of many things and issues and you can probably RV from this eye...I do not know, but, they say that in the East, some poeple have meditated like this for so long that they actaully burn a whole in their head in the front from the level of energy that they send there and there is some link to this eye and the red dot on the foreheads on the poeple. He mentions it (the hole) but I do not remeber the context or content of his remark.

You will begin to feel the burning sensations in the area that you are looking at. By looking at it and mentally focusing at thet location, you send energy to the spot and the third eye opens and you see things that you can not see with your regualr eyes. It is all about the focus of the energy to that eye and then it opens.

That must be what you have been doing. If you have a book store near you, swing by there and just look up that chapter on opening the third eye and read it, it is only a few pages long.

BC the EC
 

polkadotpuhjommies

.... don't be ambiguious with your intent ~
Thanks...

I don't think this is a 3rd eye issue. For years I have had the vision things etc along with the colors. I know my eye is open and has been for a long time now.

The sequential series of events is much more a feeling of 'going'. I've had a few OBE's that I've been aware of and can recall clearly to this day.

This is all something different. Just can't put my finger on it. I've tried to find out why I would be seeing grids....what does this have to do with me kind of answers? Grids are often used by healers, but I don't feel I am a healer....to that degree anyway.

The geometric shapes I know are foundational -- but why I would be seeing them I haven't a clue. I'm certainly not a mathematican and I'm not in the sciences.

The warp speed reading is like being instructed. I know I am reading important things, but have no idea what by the time I am consciously aware of this going on. This will often happen when I am very relaxed and kind of day dreaming....just page after page after page...and in English.

I no one here as any knowledge of these things, then I wait. Sooner or later, all these answers come...I'm just trying to hurry it up a bit ;D
 

polkadotpuhjommies

.... don't be ambiguious with your intent ~
Thanks...

     I don't think this is a 3rd eye issue. For years I have had the vision things etc along with the colors.  I know my eye is open and has been for a long time now.

    The sequential series of events is much more a feeling of 'going'.  I've had a few OBE's that I've been aware of and can recall clearly to this day.

     This is all something different. Just can't put my finger on it.  I've tried to find out why I would be seeing grids....what does this have to do with me kind of answers?   Grids are often used by healers, but I don't feel I am a healer....to that degree anyway.

    The geometric shapes I know are foundational -- but why I would be seeing them I haven't a clue.  I'm certainly not a mathematican and I'm not in the sciences.

    The warp speed reading is like being instructed. I know I am reading important things, but have no idea what by the time I am consciously aware of this going on.  This will often happen when I am very relaxed and kind of day dreaming....just page after page after page...and in English.  

    If no one here as any knowledge of these things, then I wait. Sooner or later, all these answers come...I'm just trying to hurry it up a bit   ;D
 

energycritter

energycritter@y ahoo.com
Yea, I got a little off track....read it too loosly or not thoroughly at all....and I am wanting to RV...I guess I had better pay attention to the actual normal, can see it with regular eyes, type stuff first....ha ha ::) ::)

BC
 

River

New Member
Hi PDPJ,

If you can find the OBE thread there is a mention by...um...I think it was Weewizard?.....that she had an OBE and came across a grid.

hope that helps :D

Liz
 
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